New Beginnings – A Fresh Start

Last night C came over.  I know many people would think that that was a bad move, but in my case I kinda had no other choice. 

See, I left the apartment in a kinda hurry last weekend.  I was overly emotional, and really just wanted to get the HELL out of there.  All of his stuff was still there so it made it pretty difficult to get all of my stuff out.  These last couple of days, C has been really going through everything since he leaves on Sunday and needs the apartment to be completely empty by then.

Almost every few hours I get a call from C asking if I need this or that, whatever he keeps finding in the closets, under the bed, etc.  We have both been busy these last few days, and I am busy both tonight and tomorrow night, so for whatever reason, we decided to meet on Thursday night so that he could give me some stuff and so we could grab a bite and catch up.  I mean, we have been together for over 4.5 years and he is leaving for approx 2 months so it only feels natural to want to spend a little more time together before he leaves.

Yesterday at work he asked me if I wanted him to just meet me at my place so he could drop off my stuff and then we could go grab a bite.  My initial thought was no – I mean, what if he sees my really cute apartment and gets really sad and then of course I’ll get really sad and then… or what if he sees my apartment and is fine but every single day from now on I’ll come home and remember the time he hung out on my couch and get really sad?  There were A LOT of what if’s.  So I point blank told him that if he was gonna be sad it probably isn’t worth it.  He promised he wouldn’t get sad, in fact it would make him feel better to know that I am in a good place. 

That’s exactly what happened.  When he first walked in, he was in shock at how beautiful my mom made it look in such a short time.  Then, I could tell he seemed relieved that it was pretty and clean and safe and most importantly, COOL (um, it’s like a bajillion degrees here in LA today).  After a few minutes we took a walk to grab some dinner, and sitting at the sushi bar almost felt like old times.  We laughed, drank sake, and even hugged and kissed a bit.  But it wasn’t awkward or strange, as wierd as that may sound.

After dinner, he came back upstairs and we ate frozen yogurt while watching the Office.  Yes, it was a new location, but it really felt like old times.  And it was nice.  When we said goodbye I had a quick second of sadness, but it all went away when I asked him if he was sad and he said completely truthfully that he wasn’t.  It automatically made me feel better.

I see him one last time on Sunday when I take him to the airport (I offered).  Both my mom (who has been so integral in my life these last few weeks) and C leave for extended periods of time on Sunday, so I can almost assure that that will be a sad night for me.  I guess I should make some backup plans in case I don’t feel like sitting at home on a Sunday night wallowing in my tears.  Anyone want to come out to LA to make me feel better?  Come on, there will be wine!

One last thing, my sister just posted the following on her blog and I think it’s a great idea… so – VOTE! 

My mom owns a beautiful, intimate skin care salon in Los Angeles. After taking some time off from work (working with her husband, and to heal a broken foot), she put a lot of effort into rejuvenating her business. So far, it’s been wonderful! She was recently featured on ABC news as an affordable spa for Mother’s Day, and she won 2nd place (via votes) and won the editorial review on Citysearch’s poll for “Best affordable spa.” Go mom!

The link is: http://losangeles.citysearch.com/bestof/winners/facials

And her spa is “Miri Mandel Skinworks.”

I would really appreciate your vote!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!