Filed under: Ups and Downs
Up: Friday night at our show’s taping, feeling proud of my hard week’s work.
Down: Driving home on Friday night with no plans except to sit at home and watch TV… and feeling pretty damn lonely.
Up: Drinking a nice glass of Pinot Noir while watching Grey’s Anatomy and all of a sudden, not feeling that bad staying home.
Down: Waking up early on Saturday morning – AGAIN.
Up: My best friend coming over to hang out with beautiful pink roses and a bottle of La Crema pinot – my fave.
Down: 102 degrees – ALL WEEKEND
Up: A fun movie and dinner with three of my best girls
Down: Bursting into tears in between a sip of a margie and a bite of a taco at dinner. And not being able to stop until going to bed.
Up: Having my sister spend the night and having breakfast with her this morning.
Down: The horrible pit in my stomach ALL DAY anxiously awaiting saying goodbye to C.
Up: Stopping at an animal shelter to see what kitties they have available… didn’t find mine yet but got me very excited!
Down: Crying when C got out of his car to drop things off at my apt.
Up: Laughing and enjoying my time with C for a couple of hours before I dropped him off.
Down: CRYING, CRYING, and MORE CRYING after I drove away.
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I’ve been trying to be positive lately, so at least you have a number of ups to go with your downs. Also, you’re getting a kitty? So exciting!
Comment by Stephanie May 19, 2008 @ 12:32 pmsometimes kitties make everything better. been thinking of you, considering we’re both in similar situations. i’m hoping that both of us have something great coming in our near future.
Comment by Michelle & the City May 19, 2008 @ 12:43 pmI can’t help looking at this like it’s really good that you’re seeing the positives despite it being so hard. I think a kitty is a very good idea!
Comment by Guilty Secret May 19, 2008 @ 2:16 pmSending lots and lots of hugs. It will get better with time, I promise.
xox
Comment by La May 19, 2008 @ 2:18 pmI totally agree that a kitty will help. Pets are known to be great therapy! I agree with Stephanie, it sounds like you have a lot of ups, which is great! The crying… yeah, that’ll probably happen for a while, but it’ll start to happen less and less, so that’s good!
Comment by Trace May 19, 2008 @ 2:36 pmThe crying is completely normal and will get better. Promise. But your ups and wonderful and I’m so glad you can find them during this rough time.
Also, 102? Might be a down for you but I’m jealous!
Comment by Molly May 19, 2008 @ 3:59 pmThe hard part is over! You can do it! You have all the support in the world. Keep your head up!
Comment by California Girl May 19, 2008 @ 5:54 pmThat’s good that you still have so many positives to look to =) Also, I’m with Molly, I’ll take 102!
Comment by Sandy May 19, 2008 @ 6:04 pmThis is good for you. You will have an unbelievable amount of coping while he is away.
Comment by Passionista May 19, 2008 @ 7:46 pmi’m so glad there are so many people with you to give you support. and seriously, i always find crying is the best method to get anything out, that and sleep. hope you start to feel better.
Comment by katelin May 20, 2008 @ 12:46 amI like this post, you’d have to admit though, the quality of the ups far outweigh the downs.
again, try to take good care of youself. I’ll keep you in my thoughts. Hang in there.
Comment by Abbie May 20, 2008 @ 1:41 amOh honey, I hope that by the time he gets back the two of you are stronger and better people
You both deserve that.
Comment by littlespoon May 20, 2008 @ 2:11 pmIt’s only natural sweetie! Give it some time, and things will be fine. I know you will be.
PS Cat? No, no, no! Get a dog
Hehe.
Comment by crystall May 21, 2008 @ 1:39 pmAw what a sweet support system you have. Pink roses? Breakfast and sleepovers? A soon to come cuddly kitty? That’s awesome. Also, if you really try and focus on the “ups,” I’m sure you’ll start feeling positive from all those good vibes in no time.
Comment by bunny May 22, 2008 @ 4:12 am