New Beginnings – A Fresh Start

This week has actually been pretty incredible, considering where I thought it might have been with the weekend being so sad and all.  But it was good, and suuuper busy, and here we are at Friday (a rainy one at that) and I din’t even know how it happened.

Monday night was dinner for one of my little sister’s bday (she’s 16 – holy shit!), Tuesday night was dinner with a girlfriend (more on that in a second), Wednesday night was teaching a workshop, last night was my first quiet night, and tonight is a late night at work cause we’re taping.

SO, dinner with my friend on Tuesday.  This is a girl who I just recently met – only 2 months ago, but we hit it off instantly.  She actually is the wife of one of C’s coworkers and great friends, which made me initially concerned if we would ever talk again in light of the recent events.  However, the night that C got together with her husband and filled him in on everything, I got a facebook message from her asking if we could get together.  I was so happy. 

We met at this great sushi restaurant and after a few minutes of quickly shooting the shit, we dove right into the obvious elephant in the room – the breakup.  I told her what the last year of my life was like in the relationship which led to where we are now, since she had absolutely NO idea because when we had dinner with them a month ago, all was great.  I told her that surprisingly, there was never anger, or animosity, mostly just sadness but always love.  She didn’t know how I could do that and continue to stay so strong.  To be honest, I don’t either.  It actually blows my mind that minus a few minutes here and there of sadness, I’ve been pretty even keel – even happy. 

Last night was the first night since I moved out that I had not one plan.  I had planned on going to a party with my sister and her husband but that fell through.  So I found myself driving home at 7 pm on a somewhat rainy night listening to sad music feeling, well, lonely I guess.  I forced myself to get out of that negative place so I did what I love – went to Trader Joe’s, picked up some yummy ingredients, and made myself a healthy dinner while watching some good TV.  Who would have thought I could get out of my bad mood so easily?  This morning I woke up to a great email from C (I kinda was wondering if he was still alive…).  He is doing fantastic, is meeting all sorts of people, traveling all around and even went skydiving!  I had a smile on my face the whole time and it was great to not only hear from him but hear that he’s doing so well!

This weekend should be nice.  I tried to make a lot of plans because I know that weekends tend to be more depressing for me.  Tonight is a late night at work but a lot of my family is coming to see the show so that should make it even better.  Tomorrow I am running errands and going out with my friend and her boyfriend and his friends at night.  Sunday is just lazing around and hanging with my little sister at night for dinner and a movie.  Finally, Monday is bbq at my sister’s!

Have a happy long Memorial weekend all!!!