New Beginnings – A Fresh Start

Where to even begin… my life has been so ridiculously busy and crazy, and I just haven’t had the energy and/or time to post at all.  Here’s a recap of whats been going on:

• C and I have been keeping in touch here and there thru email.  Mostly though, I catch up on his life on Facebook, of all things.  The last email he sent me, he sounded fairly happy until he brought up that my changing my status on Facebook to “single” really hurt him.  I emailed him back and told him that these kinds of things dont really matter… but what matters is that we see how happy we can be on our own.  I also told him that I didn’t realize how stressful the past few months were when we were deciding the course of our relationship until I moved out and he left town.  It was only then that I could feel like I could BREATHE.  That email was sent a week ago and he hasn’t sent me one back yet.  The only way I can see what he is up to is through Facebook, where the last 15 or so new friends of his have been girls.  Very inneresting…
• Not that I’m jealous – because I’m really not.  In fact, I have kinda been hanging out with this guy at work.  There could potentially be many problems with this.  First of all, he is in a lower position at work which I know shouldn’t be wierd but it is a bit for me.  Also, we work together.  COULD BE A PROBLEM.  But, omigod is he hot and sooooo sexy.  And we laugh – like all the time.  And conversation?  NEVER a problem.  It just works.  But there are some fears on both of our ends about not getting too involved, or feelings getting too strong because a) I just got out of my relationship b) we work together… ugh – why cant things ever just be easy!
• I still LOVE my apartment and love living alone – although I have to admit that I haven’t spent too many days alone there at night.  I have just been SO busy every night that I think I have only had about two or three nights after work where I go home to just my dvr.  I’m kinda craving that tonight actually.
• In general, my spirits have been high.  The only downer to all of this “single” stuff is I find that I have spent more money, drank more alcohol, and slept less hours than I have in a LONG time!